It’s CEO of Linux trying to brainwash us! /s

Not just “the one”, one of like the 10+ I’ve seen over the past few months. I notice them like every day that I’ve lost count. Technically they aren’t really breaking any rules so I can’t really report, but it feels uncanny.

Yes, I obsessively check the profiles of people posting… especially if the contents are political (regardless of which politicla leaning), as part of my skepticism in face of this ai-era.

Its more obvious when you use piefed, you see the exclaimation marks next to their name.

I’ve seen handles in kanji — I assume Japanese, could be Chinese.

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Fun fact, the word for paternal grandparent and maternal grantparents are different in Chinese. 爺爺 and 嫲嫲 for paternal grandpa and grandma, 公公 and 婆婆 for maternal grandpa and grandma. At least in Cantonese (or maybe its Taishanese, no clue, I always mix up Cantonese and Taishanese because I sometimes hear Taishanese when adults were talking to each other when I was a kid), idk if Mandarin is the same, I don’t have any family that use Mandarin at home.

There is no confusing the paternal and maternal grandparents, its totally different words

Someone posted a music video of a popular Chinese Music Video called “Stranger in the North” and then I scrolled through that channel and found out about this gem:

玻璃心 (“Fragile”, but its literally translated as “Glass Heart”): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Rp7UPbhErE

It’s a Mandarin song that got banned in China lol, the two singers involved in the Music Video also got banned from China…

I’m a native Mandarin speaker and even then I’m not sure I understand the song 100%, but since its banned in my birth country, I feel so privilaged to be able hear this song outside of the wall lol.

It’s apparantly making fun of the wumaos and ultranationalists on the internet.

Monkey brain need dopamines 🥺

High School, Self Defence, got arrested. School administration sided against me and call the cops. I was 17. School district then tried to expel me, but failed. Charges eventually got dropped. I ended up just hating school and authority¹, I just took the GED, I got high scores on it without studying (I mean it aint hard, just basically highschool speedrun via a test that takes like a few hours in total time, I know the stuff already). USA btw.

(¹I mean, who doesn’t hate authority, that’s like American tradition, lol)

I have to thank my mother for becoming a citizen and therefore I automatically derived citizenship (under the Child Citizenship Act), so I already had citizenship several years prior to this incident. I can’t imagine the alternate-timeline of the possibility of being deported for a stupid school fight (I mean it’s a hypothetical worst-case scenario, not sure if that would actually happen in practice for something that small, but then-again this was during trump term 1 so… 🤷‍♂️ anything could happen).

My Mandarin skills are like… 2nd grade level last time I’ve been in school in China, if I got deported, not sure I’d survive in that society, especially in this scenario, I’d be separated from my family that are probably gonna stay in the US and I probably get left behind.

Hypothetical alternate timelines always hurts my brain just thinking about them…

I think I had a few fights in like elementary school, I was always the one getting bullied for some reason… always on the defence, I never even provoked a fight. What the fuck is this life.

Drag is disappointed in you. Drag likes to be referred to as Drag.

Because you don’t just need a legal team, you need the eagle team!

Oh lmao, I forgot about the fact that they blocked it. Should’ve mentioned it.

Curious: Are you using tor right now? Lol why admit it publicly?

What is the purpose of a snail or a polar bear or a single blade of grass with their life?

That is my purpose.

So… reproduction? Have offsprings, then die?

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!piracy@lemmy.dbzer0.com (inaccessible from lemmy.world due to the instance’s anti-piracy policy)

I haven’t personally witnessed a “Chinese Overseas Secret Police” agent yet being in the US for like… about 15 years, so idk how serious the supposed “threat” really is. I never got any threats from PRC, yet. Then again, I don’t have much followers and I don’t really show my face and I never mentioned my real name. It would take a bit of effort to deanonymise me (not impossible, just takes effort)

I think Russia probably has a worse M.O. like… they just poison their dissidents, like Alexy Navalny

Not sure if there are any recorded instances of Chinese dissidents being poisoned like Russia does to their dissidents, so like…

if I get coerced to “go back” I’d just refuse…

what what are they gonna do, drive a van and grab me and then somehow get me across the ocean? (do they even have the logistics?)

Idk, I’m probably a bit more worried about ICE at the moment.

I mean I say anti-CCP shit and I don’t really feel fear as long as I never step foot in China again. But when it comes to… anti-trump speech, that’s when I sort of self-censor a bit to make sure it isn’t legally considered “threatening violence”.

Kinda like Snowden, you know. He can criticize his former country, but isn’t really in much of a position to criticize his current country.

I’m sort of in a Snowden-type of situation, I mean I do criticize the US, but I have to “tone-down” a lot of what I say about the US.

So, TLDR is: 没办法, I can’t do anything about it, I’m not in a position of power to help other Chinese dissidents.

It sounds terrifying if they do decide to target you, that is; but there are a lot of dissidents around the world, they can’t possible go after everyone, especially those outside the country.

No chance. My brain is fucked.

I literally felt so much anxiety when I tried to live on campus so I ended up withdrawing from college altogether.

I’m just feeling so ashamed of myself for being such a failure I kinda think about killing myself all the time. Depression is so hard, I don’t have the energy to do anything.

It was already bad enough before, now I feel so anxious going outside because of ICE.

I have trouble dealing with other people. I don’t think I can handle roomates… I mean I did had roommates in college, and I kinda… everyone hated me. Well they didn’t say it, but I feel like I was unwelcomed.

I have a lot of health issues. I snore when I sleep and it annoys everyone.

Rent is so expensive these days you can’t be by yourself, but roomates is also a… no no.

I’d probably just get stabbed to death since I have no social skills (well not like zero, but I never really made friends in school, so… there… I doubt I’d get along with randos as roomates in like the adult world no-less)

I mean, I even have trouble finding psychaitric help and feel anxious af trying to schedule an appointment.

I need my parents’ money to even afford health related stuff. Y’all know how it is in the US. They say “seek professional help” but nobody ever mentions the money aspect.

This is years of emotional abuse and neglect.

They destroyed my ability to be independent.

I mean even my older brother 5 years older than me probably has problems being independent. He’s still at home with us.

I know I sound pathetic af

Our family is just a bunch of failures

Shitty parenting destroyed us

Thanks a lot, Confucious and your “filial piety” tiger parenting bullshit.

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I say anti-CCP stuff to trigger my parents lol.

They aren’t even involved in the CCP in any way, like they’re just originary people never been involed with the party in any way, but they have like some weird nationalistic glass heart that gets mad when I say anything anti-CCP.

Like… lmao what, are they afraid of the China’s secret police? Why do we have to continue pretending to love CCP? We don’t live in China anymore lol.

Like if they piss me off, I’m just gonna say anti-CCP shit to piss them off. I really wanna like make a WeChat account, add my parents, then spam their accounts and get them banned.

I remember a few years ago, my mom yelled at me so much and made me cry, so I just used a permanent marker and wrote (graffitied) “消滅中共，世界和平” on a wall inside our/their house [in the US], it’s still there, I didn’t know how to write the characters, so I just typed it in pinyinyin and used traditional characters for emphasis, they couldn’t wipe it off the wall. That is a permanent mark of our relationship. That writing on the wall represents the scars of my traumatic childhood memories.

Like wtf, CCP literally tried to kill me (long story short: One Child Policy, I was the 2nd child), and they still like defend CCP as if there’s a CCP secret police here in the US watching us. Fuck them, who cares.

(I just had an argument with parents so this comment might seem very angry and like a rant, whoops, I trauma dumped on the internet again)

Also if you have any disabilities, like if you have depression. Oh your parents are gonna be so cruel to you. You are a “useless eater”.

What the fuck is this life. Why?

I wasn’t even supposed to be born. Why the fuck am I here. This fucking suffering.

I’m from mainland China (currently residing in the US), profile pic is because I hate the 5-Star Red Flag and the politics it represents.

Probably something with Asian cultures’s obsession with the idea of “success”. Like… my parents literally wouldn’t care if I became some corrupt government official as long as I don’t get caught. Success is worshipped, failure is shamed. I talk shit about trump, and like my mom said “at least he became president, can you do that?”

I’m like: “naturalized citizens can’t be president”

omg immediately less than 1 second later, mom goes: “but Gary Locke became Governor” (Gary Locke is a Chinese American)

And like you know Mamdani won, immedialy after, she told me “an immigrant managed to become Mayor, you are an immigrant just like him, why can’t you do the same?” bruh… maybe I could if I didn’t get so much emotional damage, mom.

Like they worship success, regardless of if they are “good” or “bad” people.

If you try to be a good person and you “fail” in life, you are considered worse than the bad person in power making a lot of money.

I’m like just so close to killing myself, even though I really wanna live, this is too painful, depression is too painful.

My parents are slowly killing my ethics and empathy, like one day I might just not care.

Either you die young with your morals intact, or you seek success and survival, and you corrupt your soul…

This world is cruel. The world wants you to be cruel to be able to even live a comfortable life.

Not an engineer, but I have I have Asian parents, if I were an engineer and worked for a genocidal dictator, they wouldn’t care, that’s success anyways.

So… yea…

people value success over ethics

welcome to life

society…